Sometimes we allow fear to get the better of us. We give it permission to control us and veer us off our destined paths. As writers, I think we are particularly fearful of what others will think of us or our craft. We are afraid to expose our vulnerabilities and our deepest thoughts for all the world to see and perhaps reject. This New Year’s Eve, I sat alone in my favourite recliner nursing a nasty cold. I thought about how I would feel if someone told me that I could never write again. I felt awful even contemplating such a possibility. So at that moment I made my New Year’s resolution. I will cast aside my fears and uncertainties. I will not allow doubt to plague me. Instead I will plough ahead into the unknown and see what happens.
The idea of writing a novel about a reincarnated goddess came to me around the time my family was preparing for our first, long overdue trip to India. While I was doing research for our trip, I came across some great travel blogs and websites of fascinating places that we absolutely had to visit. For the next few days I would like to share with you the experiences we had and how they inspired my writing. I hope you enjoy our travel adventures.
After a few days of wallowing in self pity and the return of DH, I realize that one rejection is not the end of the world or my writing career for that matter. So I’ve decided to develop a thicker skin and take a few steps back from my novel. Perhaps a little distance is required to gain some perspective. I pitched my YA Paranormal Fantasy novel at SIWC last year and this past October as well and the editors and agents seemed very excited. I have told myself that maybe they were being polite, but the little voice inside me sometimes says encouraging things as well. It’s telling me that my concept is pretty fresh and if I stick to it people will get to read my novel. After a nice pep talk from DH, I’m ready to move on. After a night out for Karaoke of course.
I received my first rejection email a few days ago. Although not unexpected, since I’ve done my research on the arduous journey to publication, it nevertheless was a blow to the ego. The little voice inside my head that tells me I’m no good as a writer really had a field day.So what did the email say? That they were not enthusiastic enough about my submission to pursue it. Fair enough. I don’t expect everyone to love the idea. Although I tried to keep my mind on other things,the last few days have been difficult. DH was out of town, so I didn’t have him there to console me. Since he is so far my biggest and most devoted fan, that was not good. I decided that some retail therapy was in order, so at least I got all my Christmas shopping done. Tomorrow is a new day !
I have finally sent the manuscript for my YA paranormal fantasy novel Realm of the Goddess to an editor and a few agents I met at the Surrey International Writer’s Conference (SIWC). Now comes the dreaded wait. But I’m keeping my fingers crossed and sending positive energy out into the universe. I would love to hear some of your experiences from the road to publication.